shocked

hmmm i received a shocking message today.
my first reaction was to cry><
but when i think abt it, it's more like getting slapped in the face with a bad memory.
the shock and, partly, the content of the message.
i have yet to reply her but i think i'll only reply later, since i'll be seeing her.
i dun wanna make things awkward for us.

feel like talking to someone abt it, but afraid that it'll only make pple angry and sad.
maybe one day, evenrtually, but not now.

New layout!

hahah decided to change to a new layout cos my old one needed to scroll left and right, very mafan!
i also removed the tagboard cos i realise i dunno how to add it into this new template):
now should be much more reader-friendly le!((:

 had peer tutoring today,
jokes, no one came but a year 4 student studying 422 and i din even take that mod, cannot help at all:/
ym, jon, ck and xy came to chitchat with me!
hahah so slack mexP
i would've finished watching running man if not for themxP
tml got another session, but i might ask someone else to replace me, or not go at allxP
going out, but still unconfirmed:/

 got back 421 test results today!
was late for class so din get to see my results till the end of lecture, I GOT FREAKING 38/40!!
like seriously??
i thought the paper was abit difficult,
cos i had mental block here and there.
but luckily it was open book((:
hahaha i was really lucky for the last question, even though i din know i had the answer in my notes, i managed to crap sth out that sounds reasonable!(:
think the prof was v lenient.
lol i think someone wasn't v happy for me when i got back my results:/
but who cares?
now the future generation will have my 'model answers' for reference!xP
(prof gonna scan a copy of the answers.)

watched Ted ytd with dear!
 haha feels weird calling him that now:/
anw! it was okayy at the beginning, but towards the end, it became better!
guess i really felt for Lori when John was under the bad influence of Ted, esp the Flash party:/
jealous of frens but dun wanna make him choose..

 have to start searching for a paper now!!
gta do up a presentation before end of the week><

just thinking..

had a slpover with mar and ly that day after clubbing, it was fun, htht-ing into the wee hours of the morning(: wad we talked abt made me think abt some things.. the future we're looking at is currently blurry, nth is confirmed. we hope that things will turn out the way we want, but there's always the fear of the possibility that things will not go our way. there's no preventing it i guess. for me, it's ldr. whenever i'm with him, it always feels like i do not need to worry at all, as though everything will definitely turn out fine. but it has been proven that that is not the case, this ldr needs to be maintained and probly will be more tiring than a 24/7 relationship. he has been so busy recently, i only get to see him like once or twice a week, but it was always quality time, so not too bad. but it's just that when he's not by my side, i'll tend to feel like he's not there at all. like when i sms, he always either not reply or take super long to reply. i'm really scared that if he goes back, and i get used to him not being there, i'll stop trying to maintain the relationship>< and then i also dun like to call cos sometimes i feel like we dun really have much to talk abt>< this is wad i'm most afraid of, cos next time we can only skype and talk, wad if there's really nth to talk abt?? so most of the time, i let him call, at least i know he'll be free to talk to me, and i dun have to worry much abt if there's anything to talk abt:/ sigh.. i really wanna talk to him, how we're gonna maintain this ldr, but he's always so busy and after his event, there's so little time to spend tgt.. i hope we can work sth out and not leave it hanging such that i dunno wad t do when he goes back): i really hope things work out, dun think i can take another blow:(

i realise that blogspot has changed its layout, the 'hide post' function is no longer there. i've been reminded of this blog which i abandoned (din wanna rmb some things) a long time ago. and so i'm back here, reread some of my posts and haha got abit emo, which probly explains my 4am post. went out with mar, siak, ly and val today(: it was fun! like being able to laugh with and talk to them again, i missed that. one comment my friend told me on exchange, you're really strong, i could nvr tell from your behaviour. i din really like this comment. i want to be able to show how i feel and let pple come and comfort me. i made some promise to myself. i hope i can keep to it..

I'M ON DEAN'S LIST!!!

WOOHOOOOOOOO i din wanna appear boastful or proud on fb, that's why i'm declaring it here instead -
I'M OFFICIALLY A DEAN'S-LISTER!!! XDXDXDDDDD
hahaha i was quite excited when i saw the email((:
but too bad i cant go for the presentation, it's on the day dear's leaving T.T
i dun wanna waste time travelling to ntu ahahahxP

anw, today i just passed my M9 exam despite not studying much for it at all-.-
shows that the questions are repeated/very common-sense-.-
and econs quiz was easy! but so easy such that many will score):
nvm, i dun have high hopes for this anwxP

DEAN'S-LISTER FTW YOOOOOOO! xDDDD

Lynnie's 21st Bdae Celebration @ Carousel

woohoo! today had a SUPER huge lunch/dinner at Carousel@Royal Plaza on Scotts!
it was to celebrate lynnie's 21st birthday(((:
and i saw this padfolio thing i wanted to buy! ok that's besides the point><

the food there is DAMN GOOD.
all the way from nasi lemak to the fondue, it's damn worth the price!!((:
there was nasi lemak, laksa, dimsum, kueh paiti, sashimi, sushi, CRAB CLAW, the usual cakes and some really like chocolate pudding and blueberry crumblexD, and ice kachang!!
ALL DAMN NICE
hahaha the fondue got all 3 types of choc, dark, white, milk.
it's HEAVENLY haha but in the end i was so full i only took one guava and three grapes><
haha i ate quite abit of the sashimi cos it's expensivexP and i like the crab claws the most!
cos it's quite fresh and lightly salted, though i did feel weird not being able to dip it in chilli crab sauce after taking out the meat><
heh i'm the most sei in removing the crab shellxP
they had raisin scones which were fantastic as well!(:
wow and they have this awesome offer, if you pay by ocbc card, then if 6pple go, one person will be for free!((:
luckily sharon has((:
after buffet i totally feel like puking><
ate too much cos everything's damn good)):
haha even up till now i'm still burping><

after buffet activities are not that exciting..
we took photos in the MRT cos we forgot to take at the buffet area><
then ly went home, and the rest of us went to H&M
and we had to queue to go in like WTH?
haha but the queue was like 5min wait only?-.-
the clothes inside arent that awesome la..
maybe the material is good, but most of the clothes there are quite shapelessxP
i think i have to go to the UK one to see better stocks,
cos apparently aman said they have cheaper and more worthwhile stuff over there((:
then it's off to home and tuition-.-

tuition is damn shit..
i totally felt like i actly dun need to teach her one, she probly just need to go see a psychiatrist to remove her exam phobia><
then like when we do her hw, i feel so inadequate cos i kept thinking of algebra and she totally cannot understand algebra)):
i think i'm over-qualified to teach primary school level))):
heng i'm only paid 20/hour so i dun feel so guilty><

i shall go watch the voice!!((:

i'm feeling pretty sad nowadays, dunno why
whenever i'm with dear,i'm mostly happy but whenever i'm not,
i tend to get super sad..
everytime when he has some new commitment, i'll totally feel neglected.
this time it's his imperial og.
one reason i'm pissed is probly cos he's using them as an excuse.
if you dun wanna do it, just tell me, dun need to make me feel bad
and then i have to say things like nah, it's okay, dun do it if you dun wanna.
i totally mean the opposite.
and i dun wanna appear as the bad guy, forcing him, so now i have to feel angry and sad on my own.
wth. and you ask me not to cry because of you-.-

First Day of TA Duty

disasterrrr....
reached there on time but realise all the other TAs are TALL GUYS D:
i totally stand out-.-
worse thing was, i went without reading the manual beforehand,
so basically i tried to zham my way through><
i think the lab captain realised that i'm pretty noob halfway through,
cos the other half of the lab was progressing faster than my side
and he made noise-.-
totally zzzzz-ed diao
then all the way, he gave the super bu shuang look, i think he wasn't too happy
about the way aihua allocated us..
he just bushuang me la haha, hope i dun get him next next weekxP
and WTH. they were all working on 2 different stages of the expt and he expected me to leave my side of the lab (when he's alr complaining that they were slow) to teach some groups melting point-.-
i have my own way of teaching k!
i know his reasons for it la, to stagger the students so tt the mpt room wont get crowded, but wthell.
and the best thing he did: left on time for lunch at 1230 when there were still students around.
obviously stomach is more impt than teaching, BEST.
i had a gastric attack halfway through the expt and i din even complain abt please.
but at least after he's gone, i can breathe better(:
and i realised the other TAs are really nice pple! though one guy is abit bad, cos he just told me that i told them the wrong procedure and totally nvr help me correct them-.-

the freshies were nice! frenly at least(:
most of them were like me last time, dunno wad to do, but i din dare to approach the TAs last time, last time they weren't as frenly as i am):
i realised sth, i always try to teach them sth, but i tend to overteach, or rather be not organised in my teaching..
cos i have lots to teach them, but always rush through things cos many others require my help><

tml one more session! different expt though, gtg mug for it><

zzzzz hate the feeling that pple think i know sth
but it turns out that i dun.
and i have to keep asking to make sure we're on the same wavelength.
makes me feel noob and really stupid.
like that time in FOC-.-
sometimes, it also made me feel left out and like my english really suck to not understand anything that's going on.
i think it's just the way i'm feeling after FOC.
probly pressure contained throughout the camp and nowhere to let it out.

hmmm it's been damn long since i last posted. shall post abt my Cambodia trip(:

wanted to do a day-by-day recount but it'll be quite boring, so i shall take only the more exciting parts(:

the kopitiam in the shopping mall requires customers to buy coupons and use these coupons to exchange for food.
quite an interesting idea, but abit redundant, like, why waste paper?
then we got our SIM card which is our only connection with the outside world><
then it was a 5hrs ride to Prey Veng! D:

first day in school was fun! played icebreakers+station games with the grades 1-6, and the preschoolers.
the kids are damn cute!!
as usual, there are the ultra kawaii kind like siew mai,
and the ultra cool, no-smile type like hagao aka david(:
and also the bullies, like this boy who always shouts and sort of abuses them><
and also the beauties! girly girls like sophia who like to tie long hairxP
had a really good bonding session with the children, they are really open and very welcoming.
it's pretty obvious that they are used to visitors coming in, i heard just 6mths before we went, there was another YEP group there too.

i was quite apprehensive abt my lesson with the grades 4,5,6.
but it turned out fine cos they're really really responsive!
you can tell who are really smart and who are interested in learning as well as who are just attending the lesson physicallyxP
there's this smart-ass kid who answered everything that i asked, initially it was okay, but he began hogging the attention so i started to ignore him><
he got abit pissed, i could tellxP

then there's this boy called Kla (shit i forgot his real name><)
who's very playful though he can be quite serious when thinking abt answers to my qns, i think this is pretty sweet(:
he was quite touchy though, some of the EAGLE girls dun really like him><
he likes to hug guys for no good reason and very suddenly.
haha now i think of it, many of them like to do that too(:

there's another boy called sophea, who has problems controlling his bladder><
anger din know and she went to hug him on the 3rd day of teaching HAHA!
it's really touching to know that no one really discriminates him just because of his condition, though he did get bullied by that bully i mentioned above.
when we played the icebreakers, during one of the games, we had to sit in a circle and someone will start the game by placing a packet of tissue behind someone else's back. the latter will then chase down the former until he catches him or the former takes his seat.
the rare thing is seeing the older kids letting the little ones play and slowing down just to let them win the seats((:
it'll nvr happen at the Singapore orphanage we went to during pre-trip><

DAVID AND SIEW MAI WERE FREAKING DAMN CUTE WHEN THEY WERE RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there's a boy, with 招风耳, he has a super sad story..
apparently, he was found in a rubbish bin when he was just a few months old and he was covered all over with ants..
his parents abandoned him.. fortunately, he was found and sent to the orphanage..
many of the children there actually do have parents, just that they chose to put them in the orphange.
he's one of the most guai children over there, whenever the other children are playing, he'll choose to study and do his hw.
he was also often bullied by other kids for not having any parents>< the lady(one of the children but grade 12) who told us the story is very protective of him, and takes extra care of him, helping him stop the bullying whenever she's there.
i'm just glad that the kid has found a home and will be able to have a future with the education he'll get in Hope Village Prey Veng (HVPV, orphanage's name)

one of our main highlights of the day, other than the wifi the school hasxP
is the lunch hour(:
the lunch is usually cooked by the orphanage, either by the house parents or by the children.
and it's GOOOOOD. they actually cooked my favourite kind of scrambled eggs!
with meat and long beans((:
haha whenever there's veggie, anger would not eat at all, and she ate like super little for every meal-.-
after lunch, we'd go visit the mama shop outside which sells coconut, sugarcane, soft drinks and all kinds of snacks(:
initially wq wont let us drink the sugarcane, and the coconut was never cold enough, so i din rly enjoy the drink><
but after a few days, i insisted on getting the sugarcane, and he relented.
it was the cheapest (S$0.30/packet) and the sweetest sugarcane i've ever drank!!!
and it's damn cooling cos there's alot of ice in the drink <33!
we would also go to the market to shop for more drinks, snacks, souvenirs, slippers and even shoes! many of our shoes cui over there><
some of our favourite snacks include the noodle snack(bacon/spicy), the creamity (panda/choc/orange) and the starfish thingy(it's actually similar to the butterfly flour-y thingy in Singapore)!

a group of us, with the translators, would usually go to the market in the morning.
then in the afternoon, we'd start cooking for dinner.
luckily Rusydi bought like dno how many cans of pre-cooked chicken of many different flavours, then our protein source was settled.
all we had to worry abt was the veggie(:
we tried to cook soup one day but it was fail, cos too much water and not enough time and gas to make the ingredients really soft and the soup sweet.
we also had this scrambled eggs with luncheon meat(canned) which tasted quite nice, despite the saltinessxP
one day, we had some curry chicken and cos we always have leftover baguette from breakfast, Rusydi came up with the idea to use a thin film of oil to heat up the baguette(cut) and then use for dipping into the sauce.
BRILLIANT idea man! yummy!!

throughout the 12days that we stayed, the girls' dorm was infested with many minute little bugs, that were attracted to the light. cos we dumbdumb, left the lights on when we should've switched them off><
in the end, for the first few days, we were quite hardworking and we cleaned up the living room after breakfast, doing stuff like sweeping+mopping+pouring water all over the floor><
something worse than a bugs-infested floor was having a WET bugs-infested floor-.-
the girls nvr really squeeze dry their clothes after they washed them and cos we hung them in the living room overnight to dry, the floor was super wet every morning><
hence the need to pour water on the floor..
haha after a few days, we got tired of the routine hard work and decided to be cleverer.
we only switch on the kitchen lights and one light in the bedroom, leaving the living room unlit,'cept for the light from the kitchen(:
the situation was better though bugs still came, we nvr mopped the floor again after thatxP

the toilets there were.. backward..
it's the kind that you do your business, then you use a small container used for bathing to pour water down the toilet.
to quote huiquan: 'it feels like i'm just diluting it'><
then xiaohui and anger quite funny, they asked if we still can do big business.
xiaohui best, she went over to the GUYS' dorm just to shitxP
thing is, we must do it such that it went down slowly and did not get stuck><
at night, we tend to gossip (abt wq mainly) and htht (learned abt Lin and Goh and CY)or watch movies.
we watched Protege and 13 going on 30.
the latter is boring, protege is nicer(:
but got this part super paiseh>< a sex scene where the noise level was quite high..
then it was not exactly the most appropriate content to watch with EAGLE girls + one EAGLE guy =P

we made and packaged soaps while we're there too!
it was fun, and i actually recognised some of the chemicals from 'impact of chemistry on society'! xP
we had to scrap the soap into shape before packaging it.
then we went to buy items made by the children there, including soap and earrings(:
the earrings are really pretty and unique(:
i bought 3! one for regina and 2 for myselfxP
bought lots of soap for my relatives too.
we had a hand in making baguettes too! the hot and just out of oven ones are the BEST!! we totally koped like 5 baguettes><

the soap distribution was DAMN HOT.
the sun was unrelenting, there was an obvious relief when we entered the sheltered areaxP
we had to learn four lines which mean good morning, we're from Singapore, these soaps are for you and goodbye.
jom reap su-er, kh-niom mopi Singapore, ni sab-poon sen-rub nia, jom reap lear.
funny how all the cows seem to be quite scared of YX, when he's wearing his sunglassesxP
the first one totally peed on the spot and then broke free of his rope and, avoiding YX who's standing pretty close, ran one whole circle to go to the back of its housexP
another peed too, and peed for like a full minute or two>< anger took pics!
hui quan and i totally stayed away from YX for fear of incurring the wrath of the cowsxP

learned how to sign-sing 'Home'!xD

went construction for one day, did alot of hammering in the morning!
it was fun while it lasted, lunch was delicious!
but then came after-lunch tiredness, i totally nua-ed for the whole of the afternoon, being in a bad mood and not being productive at all.
it was only when Rusydi hui quan and i started gossiping did i 'revived' xP
was quite proud of our final product, a sturdy and well-constructed house for a whole family((:
it was a petty that i was only there for one day, but i really enjoyed myself!(:
they made a pretty sign on a piece of wood to indicate our contribution, pics on fb!(:

it rained super heavily on our last day being in the orphanage,
and the lorry leaked like crazy, so in the end we were still drenched and i had to protect my laptop and so i totally bent over it. kena bitten by a vicious ant then-.-
we did the algorithm march and the frenship dance with the kids and did some pretty zai formations on our own!

R&R
was fun! first meal out of prey veng was fantastic! had milktea bubble teaxP
did quite productive shopping on the first day, bought a pair of jeans for USD$6! that's my best purchasexP
then bought cambodian shirts.
on the subsequent days, i also bought many many souvenirs for my family, smugglers and tingwei, including two pretty scarves for my and tw's mothers(:

went to the Toul Sleng Museum where many pple were killed and tortured during the Pol Pot Regime. only 7 survived to tell the story><
displayed the prisoners' photos, torture tools and place of torture.
then went to the Royal Palace, not much inside, mostly not allowed to enter.
there's this flag that will be raised if the king's in the palace, and lowered if he's out, cool.
the jade Buddha in the Silver Pagoda was really pretty((:
went clubbing on the first night!!

the club there is very different, we took a tuk-tuk to the club, SPARK.
it's probly cos it's damn big, that it's damn empty too, only a handful were on the dancefloor when we were there. funny thing was, they were playing the HBO channel on this big screen in front O.o
they have a live band too, with the singers taking turns.
the singers were even younger than us!! oh ya, they dun check our IDs when we enter the club O.o
there were random intermissions when the DJ would just ask everyone to get off the dance floor and slow music will start playing-.-
we saw this little kid who's damn short and small size, he totally look like he's only 12><
we drank a bottle of Johnny Walker, Black Label for USD$90!

we also went to take a boat tour down Mekong River which was basically quite boringxP
went Russian mkt and bought SUPER lots of stuff-.-
then it was 6hrs ride to Siem Reap, during which i was burned to crisp man!
i totally had to change seats cos it was simply too hot to be sitting by the window-.- the aircon SUCKS!!
had abit of a fever that night but ate panadol and was fine after that(:

third day's exciting, we went to Bayon Temple (my fave) with all the huge pillars with four Buddha faces facing each side.
took a kissing Buddha photoxP
went Angkor Wat after that, the walk into the temple was freaking long and unsheltered all the way, so we were totally just walking under the burning sun-.-
there's this statue of a king who had leprosy and hence the terrace it was situated is known as the Leopard King-.-
i took a photo with a horse! it trembled when i touched itxP it totally look like a robot horse that could only blink its eyes, from the way it doesn't move at all!

went for massage that night and it was.. interesting and ticklish..
YX told us his story where the masseurs were massaging him and his fren and then, when they reach the inner thighs, the fren started bursting out in laughter and hw followed. he said, if he suddenly laugh very loudly, we would all know where the masseur is massagingxP
then i got reminded of the story when she was massaging my inner thighs, i couldn't contain my laughter at all!!
hhaah i affected Jiemin tooxP

okk that's it, slping liao.

it's been quite awhile since i last blogged, so i've decided to blog sth now!(:

hmmm next week is my 21st birthday party, and the following, i'll really turn 21 le..
feels kind of scary, and liberating i guess.
scary cos once i'm officially adult, there's rly no law or anything that can protect me in any way, can't think of any now><
i'll really be responsible for my own actions and though my frens and family will still be there, i would not be able to rely on them as much):
well, maybe frens still can rely((:
haha liberating as in, i can go into casinos without anyone stopping me? xP
not that i have much interest in themxP
i dun think i'd dare to watch any R21 gore or horror movies and for sexual content, haha i'm a woman, wad's there to see? xPP
hmmm actually, i'm really glad that i am gna hold these parties cos otherwise, this birthday would have felt like any other)):
i hated birthdays that are spent alone, or spent not with the pple you care about.
so i guess this birthday will be my most blessed birthday in years to come? ((:
and sigh.. it'll be my last birthday spent with dear before he flies off for 4years..
i should really be born in july then it's always pretty near sch hols no matter your age/school/country haha.
butbut!
it's not really the birthday la, most imptly, it's the time spent tgt.
if not for these wonderful times spent tgt, i wouldn't be able to make it through the other times><

ohh that time that i posted abt my cousin's breakup?
apparently, the guy was interested in another girl from his church..
and he gave the stupid excuse of clashing personalities.
like wadthehell. please say that after YEARS of relationship..
okay maybe i shouldn't say that cos he may be trying his hardest to make it work..
i hope the situation is not wad i fear it might be..
cos i wanna believe in my cousin><
i dun want things to turn out that way..

zzz my junior, also just got dumped by her 6-years boyfriend, who left her for another girl.
seriously.. all these shit nowadays..
make me start to worry a little..
but i gta believe in dear(:

had dinner with ttj, huric and dear yesterday night after pilates.
it was pleasant, guess i was abit worried abt how the guys will act in front of each other haha.
yay!! birthday party in FOUR DAYS!!!

i'm damn sad)):
my cousin just broke up from a super long relationship)):
i'm so sad cos i thought they look really sweet tgt, and that they would last..
from wad i gather,
i think he broke up with her..
i think he felt that she kept on taking and not giving, that's why he feel tired?
i can't really say anything, i know nth..
but seriously, wad makes a relationship work?
both parties must work hard,
spend time to know each other, to accompany each other, just to be with each other.
both sides must be able to sort out their unhappiness with the other party early on in the relationship,
or it may become a wedge that eventually drives them apart < /3
this made me reflect on our relationship, and i'm rly glad we did talk it out(:
all these talks made me treasure our relationship more((:
sometimes, when i'm tired, i may need a bit more patience from you, but i know, you'll always be there for me, no matter whether you're with me or not.
it's just that my cousin's breakup made me a bit scared of LDR actually..
if you can just stop a relationship when you're spending time tgt regularly, what will become of our relationship? )):
but i do trust you, hope you have the same faith in me and we'll get through this tgt and come out stronger((:

*clink* <3

i've been feeling really emo these few days..
and it has affected dear..
i'm so sorry for that esp when you just started your internship.
i just saw this song from a link on fb,
'tonight i wanna cry'
though as usual, i cant catch the lyrics,
i read the comments below and some were rly rly sad.
at least at the point tt i was reading, i could relate to them.
and i should treasure our relationship more,
by not giving dear unnecessary grief that might jeopardise our relationship.
everytime i do that, i feel really guilty and scared.
and sorry..
i need to make a conscious effort to prevent myself from falling into this mood..
it's a vicious cycle.
resolution 2011.

wahhhhh heng sia!!
CGPA never drop, instead it rose by 0.01!
one sad thing is, i got B+ for lab):
and A- for hp806):
the rest got A or A+!
quite glad that i got A+ for HMJ1((:
too bad i couldn't add hmj2 now..
and i just realised today that entrepreneurship is offered this sem!!
and i also couldn't add it..
hope they dun make it pass/fail next sem!!

sigh~ i'm feeling moody again.

today i was the garang guni again, this time for CAC FOC.
overall, it was quite fun la, except that it became super tiring and sian towards the end.
from 5 blocks become like almost 10blocks.. i still thought i could leave early.
and the worst thing is, at the end, the main comm pple who did the last block with me, they were so slack that i felt quite angry, like why the hell am i doing more work than them?
and i thought their attitude was not appropriate, who smses when asking for donations? and who asks for donations in a totally sian diao voice?
luckily this is my last canvassing for foc.
hopefully the one for SPMS FOC will be much better.
i'm sick of garang guni, i'm nvr going for any garang gunis after the spms one.
lol in the end, i literally had to limp home after that, couldn't even get the energy to walk to hougang mall for dinner with family.

sigh~ asked my dad to buy ppc back, but he went for so long, i decided not to drink it anymore.
cooked dinner for myself, spicy maggie mee that's almost dry cos there was too little water-.-
rahh and my life sucks.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!! xDD
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!(:

wow 2010 was QUITE an eventful year for me><
it started not that well, with joe, and i'm still feeling quite bad towards him):
then february was ok~ with some ups and downs
but march onwards till may was quite shit><
THEN, TAIWAN TRIP!!! xDDD
omg, it felt sooooooooo long ago la!! like years ago..
time may pass by quickly during the sem but hols that have passed always seem so far away.....
then it's june, i got tgt with dear<3!!
there were good and bad times with him too><
this sem, there were some major changes,
cbc gang changed, roomie changed, squattor added(:
dear ROD!
realised i sucked at writing lab reports):
endured my first sem without my st nicks gang)):
finally took a chem mod that actually shocked me with its difficultyxP
experienced taking an exam on christmas eve's eve!
and last but not least,
I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!!!! xDDD

thanks so much to all who've helped me pull through this whole year, esp when i'm down((:
thanks dear for just being there and being my emotional support through all the obstacles i've faced, thanks for putting up with my bad temper((: you are my happiness(:
thanks ly for always being able to tell when i'm feeling emo and so, provide me with comfort when i need it(:
thanks gor, aman, ttj, mar and siak for all the fun times we had, whether in taiwan or in singapore, WE MUST GO OVERSEAS TGT AGAIN!! thanks for being there in my life((:
thanks val for coming back once in awhile and making me realise how much i've missed you!
thanks ning for your academic motivation and encouragement and the fun fun roomie times tgt! <3 cookie, eeyore, kellie and qizai!! cup noodles supper again soon! xD
thanks adeline for listening to my complaints [you noe what((:], and giving me useful advice! i'll always be there to listen to you when you need me too(:
thanks jiada for the random jokes that are getting less and less funnyxPP and for making every outing with you enjoyable!(:
thanks BFF kelvin for the very pretty birthday gift and your encouragement [and niao-ing]!
thanks CBC gang for the late night mugging sessions and being there to prevent me from falling back to being a loner(:
thanks SIRIUS for the fun and laughter you guys brought to my life!(: SIRIUS SHINING!!
thanks KRIFFIN for not excluding me despite my lack of participation in your activities><
thanks to my parents and brother for the silent support that i can always count on, whatever difficulties i face((:
thanks wei for the christmas card and for being such an endearing little sister that i never had((:
well, thanks and sorry to joe, for the misery i've brought him and for the short period of joy he brought me.
thanks to benedict ng, tester for tan shu min on 31st dec 2010, 1st time slot, for his faith in me and belief that i can do it(:
thanks to all who've made an impact in my life, be it a ripple or a wave, (or even a tsunamixD) I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!! xDDD

wonder how they do that, so colourful!!


exotic-looking flowers(:


ooooooooooo my fave!! blue rose((: but it's only nice when they are THIS blue><


for the purple-lovers out there! you noe who you are ;)


NICEEE(:


last but not least, combining two things that i like--ferrero bouquet! xD

tadaa~ that's all folks!

MY GOODNESS.
just woke up from a nightmare.
the thing is, i rmb switching off my alarm at 8am, then i had my nightmare after that,
and woke up an hour later-.-
i rmb it vividly.

i was having an exam, in my house.
i was quite shocked cos i nvr attended any lect/tut of this module b4.
but caining did.
and she was the one who urged me to go for the exam despite me not going for any lect cos it was supposed to be easy.
and i still rmb that my exam paper was stapled at one corner, instead of the usual booklet form.
and that i thought tt's cos i nvr technically registered for the module lol.

during the exam, i was stuck on alot of qns.
the qns are mainly pictures, and asking us to label the english names of things in the school.
it was supposed to be some translation module, from chinese to english i think.
i rmb looking at sngs' forum's stairs, taken from sitting on the middle step of the forum.
and thinking that it was HC the whole time haha.
i was stuck on the qns, and i tried asking for help from ning, cos apparently she urged me to take the exam cos she'll help me.
haha i rmb writing this word, aglazarium or dunno wad, and it was pointing at the stairs, like wth???
after that page, suddenly there's an ongoing jap exam, which I'M taking too.
and i finished it before i rmb opening the booklet. and it's open book-.-, cos i saw pple referring to the book.
then all of a sudden, ning is done with her exam, and she gave my HER textbook, even though it's closed book for this exam, and left.
so i took it, secretly flipping through it, frantically trying to find the answers.
then the invigilator came by and WTH. HE WAS MY DAD O.O
i think he sort of guessed that i dno how to do and was obviously cheating.
so i directly asked him for help, cos the textbook had lots of words and no markings at all! how to find the answers?!
and haha, he initially din wanna help, but after DAMN long, he sat down next to me to work out the answer.
lols, my english is better than my dad la.

then *swish* i'm at the exam hall of my last paper O.o
i dun even rmb completing or submitting the translation paper.
i went in with jacket only, then came out to take my pencil case which i forgot to bring in.
on my way out, someone gave me this SUPER GIGANTIC notebook, it's like up to my chin and almost as wide as my arms spread out.
WOW, and it has colour!! first time, i actly rmb tt it has colour!! though abit dull, it's the same dark blue colour as my physics notebook now.
haha then i asked that person who gave it to me, and why the gigantic one when many others got the normal-sized version.
and he said, prof gave it, (i actly rmb prof so at the back giving out the smaller ones O.o, it's not even HIS module's exam!!)
and it's random give the size of the book.
i looked around, and indeed, there were random gigantic notebooks elsewhere.
so i went to put my notebook down and took my pencil case.
and somehow, somewhere, i woke up,
not even jerk awake, i was like floating back to reality, and finally realising that i DID NOT take those exams. hahaha
a super sigh of relief from me.
the last paper part was actly quite short, i was still reeling from the shock that the translation paper was so so hard and ning just left me there)):

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end of dream(:
and i checked the clock, it was 8:56am haha.
rahh... nvr wanna dream of that again):

hahah i'm wasting time blogging and reading my last time posts(:
wahhh i think i should blog more often and blog short posts,
cos i rly enjoyed my short posts(:
actly went back to tag some of my posts haha but having read through them,
i conclude that my english sucks and i can be rly cute at times xDD
and i totally forgot wad some of my posts were abt..

this is a late post, supposed to be dated 11 dec 2010(:

went for a wedding with dear ytd at novotel at clarke quay(:
it was the nicest wedding that i ever went for!
probly cos i dun really rmb ever gg to a hotel for wedding dinner before><
only proms.. haha
the decor was pretty, got romantic feel(:
though the candle holders on the table were obviously from the hotel, the paint having peeled off alr><
hahah but all in all the feel was grand and luxurious, with free flow wine, beer, soft drinks and chinese tea(:
whahaha gta talk abt the food!
the first dish will usually come with some sort of performance by the waiters and waitresses, and for this dinner, it was cute!
the waiters and waitresses come out in pairs, with the guy holding the plate and the girl holding a lighted-up red plastic rose, and a veil over her head!
wahahahha damn cute((:
food included: platter of roast pig, wuxiang, jelly fish, spring roll and chicken,
shark's fin soup (yum!)
roast chicken with the mai4 pian4 xia1's mai pian(:
steamed red grouper (xDD)
stewed broccoli with mushrooms
he2 ye4 fan4, lotus leaf glutinous rice
and yam paste(:
i think that's it.. hahah ate till super full cos our table was supposed to have 10 pple, but at any one time, max no of pple was only 7><

haha not surprisingly, the guys engaged in army talk, but i sort of enjoyed it cos part of it can be really funny!xD
then (cos the other guys' wives were not there), they started giving dear and i relationship advice O.o
which was definitely interesting and some logical, but one i particularly dislike><
for that one, dear's orginal idea was that
before marriage, girl-guy ratio: 50-50 chance of winning an argument,
after engagement: 75-25
after marriage: 100-0
which when i first heard i was like O.o serious?? you rly think tt way? xDD
BUT hahah
one of his friends started telling him the order is totally opp)):
LOL obviously he's joking,
tt's why we just laughed it off, and for the rest, take it with a pinch of salt(:
haha another advice: enjoy it while i still can! xP

RAHH i'm supposed to be mugging physics now but can't seem to get the motivation to start again):
shall mug jap first(: